~:: having a hay day ::~

Now, ya’ll may not find this interesting.  But as a dyed-in-the-wool ignorant suburb-baby, I find it absolutely and utterly fascinating.  Stick with me and I’ll have you well educated in the art of angsting over the coming winter and knowing the importance of praying for hay.  The very Real Life which our ancestors worked so hard to spare us from.  Awesome stuff.

All spring and early summer, I worry about hay.  When you grow alfalfa (which we do up here in the desert middle north), you live on a knife’s edge.  Four cuttings is what we should get out of one alfalfa plant in one season – the first cutting is weedy and – I can’t remember – too full of protein or not enough, one or the other.  The second cutting is sweet, but not too sweet, deep green, almost weedless and perfect for horses.  The third is good in those ways, too.  The forth is like stringy-stemmed broccoli -still good for you, but more fiber than fun.

But the rain took out the first crop this year.  The cow stuff.  It was a long, wet, cold spring – which you undoubtedly know.  And thus the prayers became earnest and desperate: enough rain to grow the stuff, but not enough to soak it once it’s been cut and on the ground.  Once you cut the hay, it lies in heaps, in what are called “wind-rows.”  (Lovely, lovely.)  You need sun, then, to dry the plants, and a good warm south wind to do it quickly, before rain can fall.  If the hay gets seriously wet, you may be able to save it by turning it over and over, getting the sun down into the midst of the rows.  But you lose the leaves and the delicate parts with every turn.  If the hay doesn’t dry right, it will mold – badly, horribly, and that can kill an animal.

Second crop this year was beeeee-u-ti-ful.  But will Farmer John H have enough for little old me and my little old beasts?  Always a question.  I lie awake at night worrying over it.  This year: YES!!  He came by my place and we set a day for delivery.  Right in the middle of my sliced leg recovery. 

That morning, I rose early and went to the barn – there were emergencies there.  Worse than planning a big 4th of July party.  Had to set all the pallets out.  But I was short six.  And where to get them?  We searched the ads.  Panic.  Had to set out the tarps to catch the crumbs of hay that inevitably fall to the ground in the hauling.  Had to clear the old hay out of the west stall so that the gigantic number of new bales would fit (what do you do if they DON’T fit?).  And I am under strict orders NOT to lift over twenty pounds.

I went to IFA, our country store, to start.  Needed work gloves for my all-volunteer hay crew, and some new tarps.  They don’t sell pallets.  But guess what????  THEY SOLD ME SOME ANYWAY.  I’ve lived in this town thirty years, (at least) but I never went to IFA till I had horses.  Now, I have very good friends there.

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My good friend Craig, who has saved my hide more than once.

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This is not a growth coming out of Craig’s shoulder.  It’s Cindy, who refuses to have her picture taken.

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And Adam, is it?  Who stood out in the boiling sun, helping me with the pallets.  Being patientand generous of soul all through the, “Well – wait, that one has a broken – naw.  I think it’s broken, but the one under it . . .” 

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This great big old poster features a studio client of ours, Greg Hansen, who did not win the west, but wears an Australian duster quite well.

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Here, you may see him in context.  I love this place.  They just need some English tack.

I came home with G’s fishing truck full of these huge pallets, and G spent his skinny lunch lifting them out of the truck for me, and letting me boss him as to where they should be placed.  He couldn’t do much, because he had sessions to run in the studio.  Cam couldn’t help either; he was on deadlines—and work is such a blessing these days.  I looked sadly at the old hay, knowing I couldn’t move it myself (which I would have tried to do if not for the surgery), and thought of Murphy, so far away.  I kept saying to G, “If I just had one person.”  I was thinking, “Just one son to help me.”

We went home, and I was still trying to think of some way out of my helplessness.  About five minutes after we got home, there was a knock at the door.  I didn’t want to open it.  I was too tired and sad.  But when I DID open it – there was – TA DA – my OTHER SON, the one I borrow, my Murphy’s shadow son, Brennan – here to borrow rabbit stuffing (not real rabbits) for his mother.  I said, unbelieving, “Why aren’t you at work?  You wanna help me?” And of COURSE he did.  So he went back with me to the barn and he moved ALL the old hay, and fixed EVERYTHING.  And did it make me cry?  You bet it did.  That day, my Brennan was a gift from God.

So we were ready, which was good, because the hay came an hour early.  Horses locked out of the arena, tractors roaring – the drama began, like a huge parade, like deliverance from winter, like the miracle of the turning of the earth.  The only sadness I have about the day is that I was too stupid and involved to remember to take pictures of the work Brennan did, then the empty barn, then the piles of hay so the scope of this project would come clear: it was a monumental work.

 

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Randy, with the first load.  I drove down to put the horses in, and danged if these guys weren’t already here.  “What about four thirty sounds like three thirty to you?” I yelled at them.  They only grinned.  “You get hay when it comes,” they said.  That’s Remmy on the motor scooter.  I taught him better than that in Sunday School – but his father is SUCH a bad influence.

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It was a merciless bright day, and I was so excited, I just started shooting, forgetting all about light sources.  So I played with this shot a little – I like the way the only real detail is that grin on Randy’s mug.

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I took the color out of this for several reasons – one of which was to underline the age of that tractor.  Farm equipment is something you buy and then keep forever, keeping it together with bailing string and duck tape and sheer will till it drops dead of ancientness.  I don’t know how old this guy is; wish I’d thought to ask John.  I had a wonderful little green rubber toy tractor once.  I kept trying to straighten out the front wheels.  But looking at these, I suddenly learn that they were supposed to be pigeon-toed

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Our friend, Randy – Brennan’s boss, one of John’s sons.

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John, himself, on the BIG TRACTOR.  Look at all those hoses.  A tractor is like a skeleton of a truck.

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Does this man like his work?

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John and sons.  They DO love vehicles.

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I want to give you a sense of how much hay came – but I kept shooting people.

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There were two huge wagons and then another half wagon.  See what I mean about a parade?

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The Big Tractor has this thing on it called a “hay hand.”  HUGE.

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He lowers this thing gently, neatly, beautifully – and precisely over these stacks of about twelve bales.

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I couldn’t believe how exact the fit.

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And up they go.  He’ll swing around and put them behind that wagon load you see behind him.

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See how it works?  All those loopy things are actually sharp hooks.  Once the framework is placed over the bails, John pulls a lever, and all those hooks grab the bales.  You can see the load there on the ground.  240 bales we ended up with.  Hours of work.  

The thing that struck me as I watched this is how clever farm equipment is – really ingenious machines.   I wish I could show you the baler – it drives along the windrows, scoops up the hay, presses it into bales, straps it twice with baling twine and spits the bale out the other side, all in a matter of moments.   Coolest thing ever.

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You will note that the Big Tractor does NOT sport a standard seat.  No, John the father-farmer knows how to treat himself right.  He tells me that they replace this tractor seat every couple of years.  I loved it.

You know how, when you invite 573 people to your wedding reception, you only get 237?  (Yeah, people like me don’t show up – because they never know what day it is.)  Or you throw a nice little party and invite sixty people and get fifteen?  Well, invite a bunch of people to come and sweat in 100 degree heat in a metal barn, hauling sixty pound bundles of tiny green knives and dust – and how many are you going to get?  I invited  ten and I got thirteen.

You know what they say about friends in need?  About good neighbors?  About many hands making light work?  Well, it only begins to touch the miracle of friends and neighbors like these – and sons and husbands.  I did not sit in the middle of the barn and weep, but I could have.  Instead, I just ran around telling them how wonderful they all were.

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Cam, in the red, shows you how hot it was.  Brennan, in the white hat, shows you the cheerful spirit of the day, Ron, behind him, shows you what a good choice it is to be Samoan.

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My Seth, who has lived across the street from me all his life, and who earned his spending money at the local dairy when he was pretty darn young, helped Cam with the awful work – up in the hottest air, bull-dogging each bale into place on the very top of the pile.

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Brennan and L’s brother, John K, scale the wagon the way you’d scale a crumbling rock wall.

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Youth wins.  But the military will catch up.

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This was supposed to be fun and dramatic, the dropping of the bale.  Fizzled.

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My neighbor Quentin, one of the great men.

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Cam joins the wagon-clearing crew.

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Here’s Emmy again.  Along for the ride.  She found the haying a little less exciting than she’d expected.

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But even when you’re completely worn out, there are always places where you can prop yourself up, and look charming while you’re doing it.  Emmy is the ninth child in her family – and most cherished.  I think HER shoes are new.

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See?  Haying is exhausting.

In the end, they put all 240 bales away in under an hour.

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Here they are.  My heros.  Some, I’ve know since they were babies.  Some I barely know.  All were willing to do what needed to be done, and do it in the best humor possible.  I was so proud of every one of them.  These are the men who will change the world.  These are the men we can trust with the future.  They are America – everything it stands for.  I’m gushing, I know, but I’m still shy of saying what I mean.  They broke my heart with their goodness and made me feel like life is, after all the rest, worth it.

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See, Scooter?  This is what people can do when they pull together.  This is the kind of man your daddy is.

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The Sunday Observer

I like that title up there.  I think it fits, and I think it’s a good warning.  Because every time I try to prepare one of these dang lessons on a day when I’m not allowed to go haring around doing the daily stuff, I start to think.  And then I have to write or talk or the loose ideas bang around in my head trying to line up right, and they drive me nuts.  So consider this a column, maybe?  Like an editorial?  Because even though I may have run out of pictures, I NEVER seem to run out of words.  When I die, the world will weigh TONS less.

Remember when you tried to teach your first kid (okay, I know some of you don’t have a first kid yet) how to share?  Like, the kids has something in his hands, something maybe he doesn’t even care about, but should a cousin want to play with it?  Loudly – no dice.  So you say something inane like, “Sharing is fun.  We love to share!!” with this idiotic look of happiness on your face.  Somehow, it is not in most of us to want to disengage from anything anybody else wants from us.  I suppose that’s survival mode.

So I’m preparing another lesson—this is turning into a pattern, actually, me having to do a lesson, you getting served up the musings.  And I’m thinking about this.  About how hard it is, when you actually have no control over anything, to give up the thing you hold in your hands.  When you feel like you have nothing, to share even information with somebody else.  And since we assume everybody else has exactly what it is we DON’T have, the reluctance is sometimes tinged with bitter resentment.

Does this resonate at all?

Here I am, driving down 8th North, headed for town, and I see a cop, innocently sitting in a shady spot, aiming a speed gun – not necessarily at me, actually.  But at the traffic coming toward me.  Yes, he’s doing an important job, still – I’ve been caught that way before.  And yeah, yeah – I was grateful for the wake-up call, but not so grateful for the hefty fine.  So I think, I can give the wake-up call to these people myself, and maybe save them from the fine.  Thus, the moment I am slightly around the bend, just out of eyeshot (this doesn’t sound real honest, does it), I’m flashing my headlights at the people coming toward me: Caution. You’re about to be inconvenienced and it will cost you big time!”

And I like doing it.  I also delight in pulling out of a crowded parking lot because I’m leaving a hole.  Somebody’s going to be so excited and relieved to find it.  So, to some extent, I’ve learned to share.

Okay – imagine this: imagine you and all these people, including your family, or people you really love—you’re all stuck in this dark place.  You can make a life there.  You can make a life anywhere if you try hard enough.  But some lives are way better than others, and living stuck in a dark place is not one of the better ones.  And say you are the kind of person who can’t stay hunkered down and waiting for deliverance.  Say you hunger to get out of there, and you start to explore around.  And after a while, you learn your way through the hallways and levels, and finally—fresh air hits your face, and there’s a glow way down at the end of a corridor.  And finally, a door.  A door that can be opened.

Do you go through it, burst through into the wide open ocean of air and light?  Do you dance and run away, putting the suffocating dark confusion of that place behind you?  Or do you stop, amazed, and then look back over your shoulder, remembering all the folks still back there?  Do you go back, deeper and deeper in the dark, with the risk that you might forget the way back out?  Do you do that, just to bring them back to this point with you?

And if you do, why do you do it? 

Why?

To give joy?  Simple, but honest.  Because life isn’t life without those people in it?  Even the people you don’t know – but who may prove useful, even vital outside of that place?

Because your heart would be broken, just thinking about the suffering you could have broken?  Because you can’t stand to think of it?

I love to give gifts.  I didn’t used to.  I actually don’t like to get gifts at holidays anymore—I don’t need any more stuff.  Now, the gift comes down to the emotional thing: how well does my family know me?  Can they delight me, take me by surprise?  Know what I want when I don’t know it myself?  Can they give me anything near as wonderful as just being with them is?  Gifts are kind of scary.  You could find yourself disappointed, and dealing with that just costs too much.

So I prefer giving gifts. Yeah – especially when they are not expected.  Unexpected gifts are far less likely to require polite dissembling.

And what is the point here?  Well, for LDS people, this metaphor is all about missionary work.  This is what M is out there trying to do – flashing his lights, giving gifts, trying to share with others the things that have brought light and meaning and richness to his young life.

But I’m really thinking here of things like blogs.  People sharing with the a largely silent audience those things that give them joy.  Or warnings about things not generally seen or realized, but that loom and threaten.  I’m thinking about human interaction, and this internet that lets you cast so widely – your thoughts, your wisdom, your craziness – and even your poison.  We have more access to the world through other people’s eyes than anyone in the world ever dreamed was possible.  And our choices, our choices – with everything to choose from, we really do define ourselves by what things we finally choose to focus on.

My favorite things to read are the ones well written that celebrate the beauties the writer treasures – lives someone is building from the ground up.  Children.  Experiences.  Images of lovely things  – new colors for walls, pathways in gardens – hope, aesthetic inspiration, sympathetic craziness that gives me strength because I know I’m not the only one living in an ironic and difficult world.

I don’t enjoy the brave brags: like somebody is desperately writing about how great everything is, as if she were trying hard to convince herself that it’s all worth it.  I love instead the honest evaluations that include the pain and the joy both.  That admit failure, but evidence the courage to keep on.  Light and shadow.  Hurt and humor.  Discouragement in faith.  Without those contrasts, the story is flat, and not only am I not likely to learn from it; I am not likely to read.

Maybe I’m saying how I treasure the gift of possibilities – of being able to allow my life to be touched by lives across a globe.  And how important it is that we do not let the opportunity to share ourselves (not putting our children in danger) with that world, in hopes that there is something, some tiny thing, that will strengthen and relieve and comfort somebody else.

I guess that’s what I’m saying.

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July scrap

I love the Car Guys on public radio.  I’m serious.  I LOVE those guys.  This morning, as I was winding my way home from manure shoveling (don’t tell the leg dr.), they were winding up the show with their usual class:  2 jokes.

A).  Two atoms accidently run into each other.  The first one says, “Hey! Sorry!  You all right?”  The second one says, “No.  I don’t think I am.  I think I lost an electron.”  The first one, distressed says, “You sure about that?”  The second one says, “Yeah.  I’m positive.”

B)  Whad’ya get when you throw a hand grenade into a kitchen?  In France?  (pause courtesy of the Car Guy)  Answer: Linoleum blown apart.  (you have to say it fast)

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These are copper roses.  I think of them as blooming in July, but that’s because the blossoms come out all along these long, slender, arched branches, so the bush looks like botanical fireworks.  They actually bloom in late May to early June.  It goes: snow drops and primroses, then forsythia and daffodils, then lilacs and tulips, then copper roses – after that, lilies.

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Have I sent this before?  Copper Roses (ours are a little tame).  Behind them the slope. Behind that, the river that the slope keeps out of our house.  This is my favorite light – when, at nearly dusk, the light from the sunset follows the course of the river, like a huge counter movement of buttery- warm light making a tunnel of brilliance through the twilight.

The horses presently have no routine at all, as I may have already explained, what with riding and the heat of the barn in the middle of the day and the differing calorie requirements of my menagerie.  Sometimes I don’t let them out till after one in the afternoon, by which time they are uber cranky.  Today, I got there at about ten fifteen.  It’s a cloudy day (of COURSE it is – the hay is down, waiting for baling – which just happens to be happening as we speak) and in the seventies.  A GREAT day for a ride, if you’re not wearing a compression stocking and under orders to be good.

So anyway, on this kinda breezy, cool day – especially after all this dry heat – the horses get wound up.  As I walked up the driveway, they crowd the gate, nipping at each other and generally looking like fresh fish in a bucket.  The colt’s favorite trick is banging on the gate with a front hoof.   So I get up there, and my magnificent Dustin’s head is way up – he looks like a painting of a horse, like a poem or a statue – so beautiful.  He doesn’t let me reach up and touch his nose.  So I’m resting my arm on the gate as I work at the chain snap – and danged if he doesn’t nip ME.  Right in the tender part under the bottom between the wrist and elbow (that probably has a more concise name).  Second time in all of seven years.

It didn’t do damage, but it stung.  What possessed him to do that?  Impatience?  Maybe.  Because the moment that gate came open, Sophie went shooting out like she had fire under her tail, and Z was hot on her heels.  How they make the turn through the little pasture gate at that speed, I do not know.

But when they went pounding into the pasture, suddenly, this little white shape went flying straight up out of the grass.  I wasn’t even sure I’d seen it, it was so fast.  Maybe a plastic bag, blowing in the breeze?  But no.  There it was again – a compact, streaking ball of white leaping out of the grass, just ahead of the hooves.  Findis, the cat.  Next time I let them out, I better warn her first.

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G in his biking clothes.  He went twenty two miles this morning before breakfast, from lake all the way up into the canyon.  Woo-Hoooo!

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My kitchen on a stormy afternoon.

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The same stormy day, weird light SOOC (straight out of the camera).  That day, it felt like we were living inside an aquarium.

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A visual guide to flood irrigation:  G is standing at our headgate.  On it, more like.  Lifting the metal that blocks Stan’s ditch to let the water go through.  Sounds easy, doesn’t it?  “Lifting.”  More like “wresting.”

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We go up to the gate at the river, close off the return gate and open the downstream gate.  It takes between forty minutes and an hour for the water to get down to our gate.  You would not want to be in that conduit when the water hits.  If you stand downstream, watching and listening at a dry gate for the water to come—it’s like the end of the world for everything down there: first a tremor (think Jurassic Park), then the rumbling sound, then this tremendous whoosh of the air, being pushed ahead, and suddenly, the slamming surge of wild water, washing away everything in that world below.

When it hits our downstream gate, now closed, it throws itself into our little cement box, crashing sideways, then roiling and complaining until it finds our open gate.

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You wouldn’t want to fall in here (or drop your cel phone into it).  Sometimes we get surprises, driven and delivered by the busy water.  This year, it was a dead raccoon. Oh, joy.  You can see how the water slaps against the bulwork – look closely – it covers the arch and would go over the top if it could.  And fills the ditch on the other side.

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Now, we have our own happy little stream, parting the grasses and finding its way, finally over the south bank to fill our pasture as though it were a huge, shallow saucer.  I have built dikes over the years to keep the inquisitive water out of the barn, where it has no business being.  It covers the grass, anywhere from two to five inches deep.  If you like, you can come down some afternoon when this is happening, and run through the grass barefoot.  The dead raccoons usually get stuck down there in the ditch, so you don’t have to worry about that.

Three or four hours of drama, every ten days.  But it all finally soaks down into the soil to find the roots of our grass, and life goes on.

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Rachel and Chaz and Misty and I went to Gardener’s Historical Village on a girls’ day out a couple of weeks ago.  It’s a fun place, like a little village, laid out in the most charming prospect ever.  Each store is in a tiny historic building, all hauled in by somebody with delightful vision, each with its history engraved on a plaque by the front door.  Hand made things, odd delights, wonderful treasures.

I came out of a store to find the other three staring at this house, pointing to the eves and making female noises of cuteness and wonder.  I couldn’t see a thing up there, but they told me: a mother bird, feeding her babies, way up under the eves.  So I took a picture.  What you see here has already been doctored.  In the original shot, you saw what I saw, nothing but black up there under those eves.  But when I got the shot home and explored – oh, here is the wonder of light – this:

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is what I found.  This little bird, tucked way into the shadows, feeding her babies.  How cool is photography?

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This is what you get when your horse takes the barrels in your arena seriously.  For those who don’t know about western riding (i don’t know that much): western riders love to do these races, like pole bending (if you know dog agility, it’s just like that, only bigger), and barrel racing.  The latter, as pretty clearly explained in the name, is a matter of racing from barrel to barrel, making tight turns (have you ever seen a horse turning so fast he’s actually lying down?) and heading for the next one.

I do not barrel race. But evidently, Zion, at some point in his checkered past, has done it – and so thinks, when we are happily, casually using MY barrels as just interesting landmarks in the arena, that I want to go around them just about as tightly as he can, with very little concern for the fact that I actually have a LEG hanging down there that might just get in the way.  Two things cannot fill the same space at the same time, unless one of them sort of dissolves so the other can pass right through.

Which is evidently what happened to my knee.  This is about a week later.  I wanted the spectacular color recorded, but kept forgetting to have it shot.  But you get the idea.

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Julie, the only dog EVER to be allowed to sleep on a bed in this house. Doesn’t she make an adorable little package?  She’s lying on Levi’s purloined blanket: he is her purpose in life, so we comforted her with his smell.

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Among her other charms, Chaz suffers from an inordinate fondness for beetles.  This guy was on our front porch one morning, and she went nuts over him.  Evidently, and quite happily, we don’t see a whole lot of these guys around here.  He stuck around for days.  Then suddenly, there were about three of them: a tour of scarabs that got blown off course on their way to Egypt?  Now they’re gone.  Go figure.

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This mysterious tree started growing in our yard years ago.  I tried matching it to some leaf template in our Western Trees book, but could never be sure.  This year, I went out to see if the birds had gotten every darn one of the twenty three cherries our tree faithfully puts out every year (like clockwork), and found these branches all tangled with the cherry ones:

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Okay.  So you know what this was?  Neither did I.  It looked like a raspberry/blackberry tree.  But I was SURE it had to be poisonous.  I went back to the books and finally found out: this is a MULBERRY TREE.  Just like in the song, except not a bush.  And this fruit?  IT’S YUMMY!!!!  Only because of all the stuff going on, I didn’t get to the lower fruit before  the birds got it.  So now, I could make a pie, if I had a really, really, REALLY tall ladder.  Who woulda thought?  Fabulous berries that grow five stories in the air?

So there.  I think I’ve finished up  all the little loose ends, except the recipes I found last November.  How sad.  I guess I’ll just have to root out more stuff.  Tough job, that.

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The 4th: part tres

When I was a kid, I fell in love with Polyanna.  The movie, I mean, not the character.  I loved the prisms.  And I loved most of all the 4th of July bazaar—the games and the flags and the corn on the cob and the prizes.  And all the people.  All the neighbors, celebrating together.

So at some point in our young lives, I decided to make a great 4th picnic in my own yard.  I researched games, invented races—even chased down burlap bags for three legged ones—some involving buckets of water, some about spoons and eggs.  All the guests—fathers, mothers, missionaries and kids—had to play.  It was wild and wonderful.  And there were games of skill (adults excused): tossing horseshoes, dropping clothes pins into bottles (my mom taught me that one), all kinds of things.

Each child was given a gallon ziplock bag with his or her name written on it, and into those bags went all the points won for each game, points embodied in tiny tootsie rolls. If the kid was wise and didn’t eat the points, he’d total them up at the end of all the games, and then line up with all the other kids in order of points.  And then—ah, and then—out came the prizes, all crowded on to a big old green tray that once belonged to G’s mom.  And one by one, each child came forward to choose.

Oh, and I forgot.  The fish pond.  I remember fish ponds from a PTA fair we went to at Kentwood School when I was in first grade, back in LA.  Magical.  Incredible.  So we had one of those too – and we used a real rod (sometimes a stick – it just depended), and the “fish” hid under our river deck while his partner stood up on the deck and, VERY loudly remarking on the age and gender of the fisherman just approaching the rail.  Then the fisherman had to call out, “Fish. FISH.  Come UP!!!”

Down went the lure.  And the breathless wait.  A tug – a fish hooked – and then the fisherman reeled in a ring or a car or a parachute guy or a jumping frog or a bracelet – and everybody crowded around to see.  All while the river rushed by, down below.

But our kids are all grown and gone now.  Except Chaz, who is gone more than she is here, and who now is a planner, no longer a receiver of the magic.  And all the kids of our friends who used to come, all mothers and fathers themselves now; perhaps, wherever they are, they remember our yard all these 4ths later.  Remember those old times when half the ward ran wild in our shade, climbing the trees and watching their fathers and mothers run the races.  And the prizes on the old green tray.

Still, I can’t let go of that idea – of a grand fourth, and of children flying around the yard.  I’m really too tired anymore, so the picnic isn’t quite what it used to be.  More of a barbeque now.  Still with pot luck sides and pie and ice cream and cake but without the bunting and the crepe paper.  Some year, I’ll just give it up and sleep through the heat of the afternoon.

This year, it was just mostly family: my brother, Mike and his wife, L and their three ancient boys, Rachel and her good man and her million kids (we share at least one son), and Kathy and Q and their one kid  left these days (we also share a son with them), and Cam and L and Scoots.  A little bitty celebration.  Lots of burgers for everybody:

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Burgers and hotdogs and chicken salad (Kathy) and broccoli salad (Lorena, along with beans), ambrosia (I made it up) and chips, twenty kinds of soda and Kathy’s great pies, and Rachel’s banana and fresh cherry cake all aside, the games begin.  First: naming as many states as you can.  Second: naming all the presidents you can.  Third: special points for reciting the Preamble to the Constitution.  Fathers are in charge of the lists.

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A very serious father quizzes a very serious kid.

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Two more very serious fathers, while one not-so-serious kid hangs from a tree.

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Then, there’s my brother M, who counts as a father, but not as a serious one.  Here, he cheats shamelessly, handing out hints like it’s Halloween.  This native does not seem to mind.

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My brother, the father, being plied by one of his Great Sons.  This tradition is also known as “The Running of the Bull.”

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A wood sprite goes into flight, the swinger’s muse.

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A frog dodges the swinger’s fancy feet.

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A GM hugs a GK.

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A sylph plays were her new camera.  Happy Birthday, Sylph.

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This daughter is no longer up for bid.  I have decided to keep her.  Unless somebody comes up with at least twenty cows.  

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Making crowns.  Wearing her own jewelry.  Smiling her own smile.

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Still cheating.  And now L is helping him.  Yes, this is the family I came from.  But something has changed – what could it be?  Ah!  The child has become an American Princess!

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Emmy is also an American Princess, and seems pretty pleased about it.

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And then she runs away.

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But she doesn’t run far.  And this child belongs to:

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These people.  And believe it or not, she looks JUST LIKE HER MISSIONARY BROTHER.

Following: THE GREAT SCOOTER CHASE

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Scooter is fierce.  His horse picks him up, and they are off on the hunt.  The fox is already flying away.

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Swooping down on the fox.  The fox is TERRIFIED.

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Oh NO.  The fox is doomed!

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Main Non!!!  The Fox TURNS!  (Does he have worms?)  RUN, SCOOTER!

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Scooter’s fierce mount takes off – but the fox is hot on his tail.

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RUN SCOOTER!!!  Later, the fox will turn into Paul Revere, and will take a long ride himself as the Sylph reads the famous poem and the rest of the Natives render a tableau.  In the climax, Scooter gets trampled, but lives to tell the tale.

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Emmy and Skye decide to take it easy after all the amazing excitement.

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Scooter finds safety.

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Oddly, Emmy seems to be interrupting our program for the hawking of flying saucers.

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And Mike is STILL CHEATING.

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While this lovely ancient native smiles in her innocent frankness, Emmy seems to have been born for the runway – 

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Two lovely babies.

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And at the end, after the Historical Tableau and the glorious eating and the 4th of July miniature flag hunt—after the pie and the cake and the ice cream and the PRIZES (Kirsten got the WHOLE PACKAGE OF MINI CERIAL BOXES and Matthew, who was way at the end of the line, got exactly what he wanted: the first aid kit.  Colin picked a bunny in honor of his soon-to-be-a-mommy bunny, Levi absorbed the package of gold fish crackers, and the oldest, most dignified Native of all displayed his masculine confidence by choosing the pink Hello Kitty band-aides— just a few of the spectacular prizes won by the American Masses that day)—after all this, I say, the families slowed down, tidied up and wound their ways home.

After that, it was all over but the fabulous fireworks engineered by my oldest son—an ingenious and very high-tech pyrotechnical display meant to last fifteen minutes, accompanied by carefully edited and majestic music.  It actually lasted about six minutes (the fuses set each other on fire), but it was one heck of a six minutes.  Then Scooter went to bed, and so, finally did we.

And that is the end of this tale.  A long day, and a good one.  I’d wish the same to you all, but you’ll have to wait another year for that.

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Why didn’t you guys TELL me there was a bad link to Chaz’s shop? Hmmmm??? (I fixed it) And why didn’t I tell you that maybe I could get you a ten percent discount on anything you like there? Maybe. If she lets me.

We saw a movie last night, a French film I took a chance on at Netflicks, called The Choir. We loved it. We also enjoyed Mostly Martha, a German flick from which Without Reservations was taken. Oh, and we’re trying out some BollyWood stuff (love the music). But The Choir? A sweet and sometimes difficult story with wonderful music. Not like BollyWood. Like choir.

I have found out something about Valium. Isn’t that the drug people used to call “mother’s little helper”? Well, if they offer that to you when they are shoving a small tube up the great saphenous vein inside your left leg? Take it. Chew it up (yucky) and take it. I have also found out something else: whatever drug-liking people may think of this stuff, it does nothing for me. Or very little. I will admit, it kind of mellowed out the abject panic I’ve had since I decided to do something about my pregnancy ruined vein. But it didn’t really kick in till Chaz and I hit the bead store on the way home.

She thought I was very funny. I thought my knees were dizzy. But here I am, a few hours later, making sense. (Am I making sense?) And I have great hopes of sleeping very well tonight.

Here is what I hate about dealing with the “health” world:
1) There is a complete separation between the doctor and the price tag. He talks to you and presents these alternatives (I am speaking of experiences I have had over the years), but he doesn’t TELL you that alternative A is going to cost fifty bucks and alternative B is going to cost seven hundred and fifty bucks.

Once, at our old family doctor’s office, this on-staff doctor gave us a big song and dance about a procedure for one of the kid’s ingrown toenail. So we said, “Sure. Why not if it’ll take care of the problem.” He didn’t tell us that it would make the toe look weird for the rest of this kid’s life, or that when we went up to the window to pay, the girl would say, “That’ll be three hundred and seventy five dollars.”

Keep in mind this was like twenty five years ago, so three hundred and seventy five dollars would have bought a lot more then than a family dinner at Olive Garden.

My mouth must have dropped wide open. It doesn’t usually do that. And I said, “NO WAY. I NEVER would have done this if I’d known it would cost this much.” But if I’d asked that doctor, he’d have said, “Duh. I don’t know.” Like did he not sell me on the concept? And he was not the helpful young new age type of doctor who’d be glad to whip down the hall and check on that for you. Luckily, our usual doctor, the one who owned the clinic, liked us and negotiated the price way down. Thus, I did not key his BMW when we left the building to go home.

How many businesses have this model: you walk through the showroom to check out the wares, the salesman explaining the virtues of each product – but there are no price tags. And the salesman has no idea how much any of the things cost. “Just pick out the one that appeals to you. They’ll tell you what to pay when you get to the cashier.” Grocery shopping would really be fun in a place like that, wouldn’t it?

2) When I went to this popular NY dermatologist when I was in college (hoping for dates, and tired of zits), he stuck my face under an X-ray machine and then wanted to give me these shots. I, being a grad student and so no longer afraid of asking questions, said, “What IS this stuff, and what’s it going to do in my body?” This doctor laughed and said to his nurse, “Look who thinks she needs to check up on me.”

3) What do you do when the specialists EVERYBODY recommends aren’t on your insurance list?   So much for free will. (And with universal health care, these things will only get worse.)

What I like when I’m healthing it:

I like to be greeted by the office people like they’re glad to see ME. Like I’m not an intrusion on their day. Like they might even be grateful I’m bringing them business, or like they care what happens to me. Or like I’m more interesting than whatever they’re doing on the computer.

I like not to be left waiting and wondering if my file has been lost. I LOVE being offered a drink or something while I wait – but that’s only happened once. Like, today.

And doctors who talk to you like you are a fellow creature. They explain what they’re doing and why. They ask you questions. They ask about your family. And of course, I like people who really, really know what they’re doing and are gentle and deft in the doing of it.

I like when you get an initial exam, and then the doctor sits and TALKS to you, or they have you sit and watch a video that teaches you all about the thing that concerns you, including detailed info about procedures and about meds they might prescribe, including all possible reactions, drawbacks and results – and stats. And recovery times, and what the routines will entail.

I like it when the office girls give you paper work that explains what everything will cost, comparing it side by side and naming the procedures in English rather than in insurance code. So that you know what you will pay. Period. No extra this or that.

In short, I want to know what I’m getting into. I want to understand the science. I want to GET it. I want to know what I’m buying and what I’m paying for it.

And so I am recommending, to any woman whose veins have taken a beating (that would be all women who have ever been pregnant, crossed their legs, had a desk job – well designed, these great saphenous things) The Intermountain Vein Center. So there you are – a great business model, a really swell staff, and a job well done.

Oh, and it helps to have a good luck charm that an angel makes for you so that you can hold something soft and full of love – just in case.

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The 4th: part dos

Parade day is always good exercise.  If you don’t get up at five to stake your claim (which we don’t), you do a whole lot of walking (which we do).  Sometimes through parts of town you’ve never seen before.  I figure we did about twelve blocks round trip to find Cam and Lorri.

So after the parade, shoot – we did a little more parking and walking to hit the farmer’s market.  I love shooting in the market – the colors are so vivid, and the wares so real.  I am a sucker for things that real people have made with their own hands.  The market has deteriorated lately a bit – some booths have become slightly jumble sale, but worse, others are hawking cheap imported junk and greasy food.  But there are still actual farmers, many of them really, and people who work in leather or glass – like the glassblower who made Char’s necklace birds.

So I am mixing here pictures I took on the 4th with some I took a few weeks before, when Chaz and her buddy started their jewelry making biz and sat a booth themselves, in kimonos.  I’d have taken pictures of the actual Freedom Fair market, but it’s really gone down hill as far as welcoming actual artists and making it possible for them to afford to participate.  Instead you get insurance companies and spas and really greasy food and imports.  Except for Jean Clay, who makes whimsical animals and Ed Ham who is a GREAT potter.  And really, that festival air?  I get that feeling every Saturday, 4th of July or no, down here.

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These guys live in Quint and Gigi’s stake, up on the hill. I want them to live near me.  I bought a skirt, but I have to fix it a little before I can were mine to church.  Rachel and I will be TWINS.  (Don’t I wish?)

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The lovely Noah and her hunky hubby.  She works at the university, but makes felt sushi on the side.

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Real farmers.  Real food.

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Okay – he looks like a real farmer, but this is DEFINITELY not food.

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The book-binder.  Her books are SO DANG COOL.  If you want one, email me.  They cost from about $25 on up – wonderful papers on the cover, all kinds of bindings.

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The Great Goms.  Fabulous work.  Wonderful people.  Custom work or great stuff like this.  They’ll even teach you to do it yourself, then hound you till you do more –  

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And just down from the Goms: CHAZ.  She and her bead buddy set up shop a couple of weeks ago and ended up in a lovely but quiet side path.

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Preeze to buy our jewwry.

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Cute, huh?  Wanna see Chaz’ stuff?  Huh?  Huh?

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Here are my favorites.  These little birds were lampworked by a local artist.  WE designed the birds, he made them live in these fabulous colors.  I love their perky shape.

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See?  I LOVE them.  Each charm has a good-life word on it.  Rachel is wearing the red love.  I can’t remember who has the yellow happiness.  Wait, wait.  Was it you, Misty?  Speak up, you!  But more such can be made.  Not exactly the same, but close.

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See?  I really REALLY love them.  This is the picture she uses for them on Etsy.

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She is hungry for beads and color and shape.  All of these on black are on Etsy.  This is just a sampling.

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Rachel, getting her pre-show family first shopping done.


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Hot-cha.  If you want to see the rest, her shop is http://chajiko.etsy.com.  You won’t find her by searching her name.  Their sellers’ find is kind of lame, actually.   But if you do go, and you enjoy, drop a comment and I’ll  pass it along.  She’d LOVE that. 

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A really, really nice lady from whom Chaz and I bought a gift for Gin.  But don’t tell Gin.  It’s a cool thing, if Chaz actually unbent enough to buy it from somebody else . . . 

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These strawberries just killed me.  They were glowing – beckoning.  But they were also a touch pricy, and I still hadn’t finished the ones I had at home . 

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And, best for last – the BROOM GUYS.  This couple makes GE-OR-GEOUS brooms in the traditional way.  Each one is a bit of art, really.  Craft because of the workmanship, art because of the whimsy and history, which raises what they do from tool to concept and design element.  These are truly beautiful.  I finally bought one after trying out about a dozen over the last month.  I had to find the right size and shape – because I’m going to use this sucker, but I’m also going to hang it right out on the wall.  The husband is also a cooper.

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Some of the brooms are so darned artsy, you really couldn’t use them easily.  And I wouldn’t use them for Quiddich (sp), either, because you’d have balance problems.  But they are unquestionably speedy.  We carried ours all over the fair and stopped several times to give lectures on its charms.

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So that’s it.  People making things, turning time and loose materials into something beautiful or yummy (dirt, air and a seed into an ONION!!  MAGIC!!).  It’s not easy to sit the booths.  I baby-sat the girls’ for a while to let them have a break, and even though I’m a great hawker, I didn’t sell much.  Tell you what, though – here is a picture of how EVERY ONE of them feels when you buy something they’ve slaved over and beaten themselves silly till they could let it go:

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to be continued:

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The 4th: part uno

 

A little (HA) photo essay about the things I loved this 4th—
Part One
The Hometown Parade: we make it a science

Every year as the kids grew up, we made our way to Ginger’s house, a lovely pioneer era gray stone place on Center Street, shaded by huge sycamores and next door to a famous actor’s ex-mother-in-law.  I only mention that because I once lived in that house, too, as a grad student in the upstairs apartment.  I met the actor in question twice on that lawn next door.  He used to watch the parade from the porch roof.

More to the point, Ginger’s kids would spend the night on the curb, guarding our territory.  And we cashed in, front row seats for the Great Freedom Festival Parade, cannon and all.  Now, our kids grab curb on the shady side of the county building parking garage.  And again, we cash in – but now without strollers and supplies and actors.  Just us and the Fam.  

What I love about the 4th, by Kristen Randle 
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Family.  We keep adding people.  Here are Chaz and Lorri and Lorri’s mom and sis.  And Scooter.  And his cousin.  Switched.

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Pretty girls riding gaudy, shiny floats.  Modest dresses.  Always love the modest dresses.

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More pretty girls.  Like a different species, I often think.  But one of them turned and smiled right at us, almost conspiratorially.  So maybe I’m wrong about that.  Red, white and blue.  The word, “family.”

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Our Alma Mater.  The band ain’t what it once was, but nobody’ll ever be as good as Mr. Bacon was.  Still—saxophones and drums.  And a very serious female drum major.

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Cheerleaders who are just happy and friendly.  And modest.  Did I mention modest?  They made us yell.  I like legal yelling.

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Sons taking pictures of their sons.

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Decorated scooters – the military – the military’s families honored.  When I was a young woman, I didn’t like the military.  It was all tail-hook and nasty news.  But I am older now, and so is the military, and I think we understand each other better.

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Stage coaches and horse teams.  Beautiful horses, and the women who walk beside them, making sure nobody ends up trampled.

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Good old honest mules.  Who better to garner honor for their role in the history of our country?  We Americans are, basically, mules – mutts who are ornery and strong and determined—and if you can get us pulling together, we can do anything.

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City Gov.  I don’t love it – except I do, because how many places can you go to the meeting hall and actually speak your mind in front of the powers that be?  That’s America.  Yelling right at the city council.  Yes.  And green african shirts.

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Brave hearted horses.  He may be complaining, but he’s still carrying that guy—including all those over-weening silver trappings.

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Chaz is, at this very minute, saying: “I told you not to take a picture of me—and this is cream soda, NOT BEER.”  (I wish Cam would buy his soda in cans . . .)

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Crowds.  Hate ’em.  Love ’em.  Some even clean up after themselves.  This is one block.  The parade actually covers about twenty one blocks, all this crowded on both sides.  If you’re staking out territory, avoid the sunny side.

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Fancy cars.  I don’t think they get much fancier and less useful than this one.

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Moms.  Here are two random moms who didn’t mind me taking pictures of them.

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Fat babies in red clothes.

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And slender babies in red clothes.

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Oh, yeah.  Daddy is cheezy and baby is adorable.

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Balloons: really big ones.

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More amazingly brave and patient horses.  We think this one was a Morgan.   

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And Painted horses.  Not really painted.  They come this way.  Very American.  And flags.

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And dancers, once from the Islands.  And little girls with fake star tatoos.  And Radio Flyer wagons, and little girls with pigtails.

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The shirts and the music: both hot.

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This horse sees somebody in the crowd he knows: “Hey Prince!  How’d those shoes work out for you the other day?”  My favorite thing about this is the pioneer wagon passing in front of all those pioneer houses on Center.  You can see the roof line of one of them behind the WWII brick box across the street.

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Llama fests.  And matching dresses.  And colored hot dog stand umbrellas.  Oh, and baseball caps and hair ribbons.

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Ditto.  Zion is afraid of llamas.  But these are patient llamas.  And I bet they were soft.  But I wasn’t gonna go out there and brave the spit to find out.

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And sons taking even more pictures of their sons.  And young soldiers in uniform, high-fiving their neighbors, which is not what soldiers in Iran are presently doing.

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This is the way we safely watch the parade.  Kind of safely.

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Okay.  Once upon a time, a whole crowd of independent non-conformist adventurers left their traditional homes and crossed the ocean to make a whole lot of noise and drama that turned out to be  The United States of America.  These were tough people who weren’t about to be told what to do by a bunch of effete-ist gov types.  They made their own way, and won freedom.  

Some of their kids stayed right there on the farms, or went on to build factories back East.  But some of the children had too much of their parents’ grit to be satisfied, trying to fit in to somebody else’s structure.  And they went west.  Those of you who sniff and look down your little noses and call G. Bush a cowboy don’t know what y’all are talking about.  THESE are cowboys.  And when you see facial hair like this, you do not mess with it.

And they ride GREAT horses.

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Walks through the teeming shores.

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Saluting the soldiers.

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And young soldiers on their day off, out of uniform, sitting with family and hoping for pie.

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Pipers.  Our heritage.  Well, part of it.  Wearing uniforms.  These are not camouflage, I don’t think.  But I’ve never been to Scotland, so I don’t know. 

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Pointing.

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And the great horses with their feathered feet.  Did you know, the larger the horse, the sweeter the nature?  I’m sure there are exceptions, but that seems to be the way of it.  You don’t know big until you stand close to these guys.

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And when you hear someone say, “feet the size of dinner plates,” believe them.  They mean it.

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Bigger balloons.  And kids taking off across the street in the middle of things.  And balloon teams swirling around like so many fish, turning their balloons in mid-flight.

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Definitely the coolest parade balloon I have EVER seen.

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And tanks, almost as big as the great horses.

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But not near so elegant.  Look at this guy’s feet.  I wouldn’t want to pay for feeding him, but I’d love to know him better.

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And acrobats.  This year, pretty much, just on horseback.  For twenty blocks.  What a patient horse.

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After an hour or so, you get a little over wowed.  A little – worn out with glory.

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But the simple suggestion of a friendly tickle will usually perk you right up . . .

 

:::  to be continued  :::

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Sunday Morning

          I’m having a hard time this morning – too much sugar and excitement yesterday, I’m thinking.  So I’m wedged into the corner of the couch, trying to prepare my Sunday School lesson and considering the whole Sunday School thing: I have forty minutes to say something to kids who are thirteen and fourteen, something that will mean something to them.  Be significant.

            We do so much talking. (LOL – I do, anyway.)  Talk, talk, talk.  There’s something big out there, big and real and powerful, and we try to explain it to each other.  The way you’d give somebody directions through a maze.  Like somebody also still standing inside of a maze can be all that sure of her advice –

            What I want to do today is make them understand that what I’m trying to tell them is very real to me.  That it counts.  That it has meaning.  With my own kids, I had all the time in the world – and they watched me live what I was talking about.  There in that dull but neat church class room, I sit in a folding chair and make them keep all four feet of their folding chairs on the floor, and I talk at them.

            I was going to ask them this morning: things have meaning.  Do you know what meaning – means?  And once that question had popped into my head, I tried to answer it.  I found the process a little baffling. Go ahead.  Try yourself.

            I finally googled, the way I do with other words I’m trying to pin down – what do English speakers think meaning means?  It was impossible.  I found nothing but spirals of words, none of which focused on the meaning of meaning.  I tried significance – and they could give me sentences, but no real solid defining of the term.  I found that “important” was a commonly invoked cognate.  So I started thinking about that.

            Im-portant.  Im= prefix which indicates an odd range of (sorry) meaning: either “NOT” – as in im-possible –  or “toward”, as in “implode”?

                     And then –    -portent: something that predicts a significant (often scary or threatening) event. (my definitions, here) – often used mystically, as in a prophetic sign of some kind, predicting a catastrophic – to us, anyway – event.  Or, if not catastrophic – significant.

And we’re back at significant. It actually means the same exact thing – an act or word or event that is a sign of what will come next.  And the word always carries with it just a hint of warning.

What’s interesting to me here is that both of these words seem to have nothing to do with human will, human choice – not in their structure.  The future is in the hands of fate or Divine Power.  I guess, when I’m a mother, and I say, “If you don’t stop doing that . . . “  and I am the kind of person who follows through, then I have made in important or significant statement.  No, if I raise my eyebrow in a certain way – that fits better. 

But do not our own choices, no matter how small, end up being signs of what will follow in our lives (assuming we aren’t hit by a bus as we leave our front doors)?  Is not our own will, then, just as significant as a rainbow or certain lining up of stars?

Regardless— to us human mortals – it’s like everything points to the future.  The future is what we try to shape every minute.  We eat right so we won’t have heart attacks.  We wear helmets so we don’t end up in assisted living.  We save money so we can buy food in the future.  It’s the future we fear.  The possibilities.  Maybe the probabilities.  Yeah.  We play with probabilities, trying to tweak them by changing the variables.

So what do I say to thirteen year olds, who  – or so it seems to me – don’t really believe in the future (not past the moment of inheriting car keys) about the meaning of meaning?  All I can think of is: LIFE IS REAL.  NOT JUST YOUR LIFE.  I can point to my face and say – see these wrinkles??  YOU WILL HAVE THEM.  But they never saw me young.  They don’t know that the me now is worlds away from the me then.  They do NOT BELIEVE.  They think that now is forever.  And in that state, meaning really has no meaning.  Because I think that “meaning” comes down to the impact of the present on the future.  What you do today will have results – some good, some unimaginably awful.  And the game of the present is to make the choices in the moment that will result in good things in the future.  That will get you what you want.

But thirteen year olds have no idea what they want: not to be in trouble.  To be able to do whatever they want whenever they want and have it be fun the whole way.  They believe in a fantasy.  They believe in it wholeheartedly and heartily.  And they sit in their grounded folding chairs, waiting out the long, long forty minutes and hoping I’ll say “hell” twenty five times.  Hoping I’ll make them laugh.  I suppose that they allow themselves to be so grounded is a good thing – maybe.  If I were sitting in the other room, in the padded folding chairs, facing a grown-up filling up the time for me, I’d hope the same things, looking longingly at the window, and wishing it would open (magically, like a divine gift) so I could fly out of it.

I don’t know.  All I know is, portents aside, I’m going to have to make meaning in a little while.  Something beyond the ultimate meaning of portioning out hay.  And I’m not sure how I’m going to do it.

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More scrap 2(?)

I hate it when I got a lot to write about and no time or opportunity to do the mind-data dump. It makes me jumpy, keeping all these things in the air. So I think I’m going to do bullets, here, maybe. Maybe not.

  • M comes home ONE YEAR FROM TODAY (wrote that on the 22nd). Until this day, I have not let anybody round off anything, like, “Shoot – it’s almost six months.” Because if it isn’t 6 months, but you say it is, by the time you get to the real 6 months, you’re disappointed – like, it should be MORE. But from now one, every day is a last one – today is the last June 22 I will wake up with my kid half way around the planet from me. Maybe. I hope.
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  • We don’t have Swine flu yet. I think. I’m almost sure. Yes, Geneva, I’m knocking on wood to ward off the jinx. Or West Nile. Pretty certain. Our mosquitoes evidently have it, but we don’t let them in. Except when they come in on the dogs, which is several times a day.
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    Hangin’ out in the hood.  In the evening, just before the West Nile Vectors come out in force, everybody’s out and hangin’.

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    Bikes, kids, lawn chairs in the street, grown-ups talking – here, we feature the fabulous striped pajama pants of Chaz.

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    Friends.  Like being tucked in to the world.

  • It’s NOT RAINING. This is both good and bad. I love the temps we’ve been getting, and not having to worry about the pasture drying out. But the first cutting of hay is dead, which is a very bad thing. And it’s going to get hot, which I hate. Why do I live in a high desert valley, then? Good question.
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    More pink snow.  I think I did better giving you the idea with these.

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  • We think the horse trailer is fixed. This time. We found a couple of really tattooed, but really gentlemanly mechanics just around the block from us. Like, you could drop the trailer off and walk home. That’s almost like living in a city, huh, Gin? Now, if only we had a bakery that close. No. I take that back. Bad idea. And anyway, we’ve got Kathy for that.
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    The three of us – wait, I was there too – four of us, hitting Gardner Historical Village, which is just an excuse for buying really cool stuff . Disclaimer: Chaz’ blue streak (the one she’s wearing) is clip in, as opposed to the one she talks, which is permanent.

  • The river is still between its banks. (Ditto on the wood and jinx thing.)
  • 27th: G and Chaz and Geneva and I rode the canyon yesterday. It was GREAT. My littleZion had about half the energy and interest he usually does, so I’m worried he’s sick. But it was so beautiful.
  • Someone explain to me why the first reaction to a couple of public deaths last week was a rash of really dark and ugly jokes? I don’t get it.
  • We dog-sat this week, and not for the grand-dog. It was the first time ever a dog has slept on the foot of a bed in this house. But Julie is gloriously happily back at home now, and Chaz is feeling bereft. The Two Old Men have not noticed that Julie’s gone yet. Old dogs, old horses. We are the only species that will actually pay for the privilege of owning inevitable heartbreak.
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    He’s deaf now.  But still so beautiful.  And so sweet.

  • We irrigate again at three tomorrow morning. Why does the rain time itself so that we have to skip the day turns, but have to do the night ones? (Is there actually somebody in charge of fate? And if there is, why do they choose somebody who is so dang in love with irony?) I HATE irrigation. I’m going to worry about it all day.
  • Okay – stay away from Etsy. Or if you go there, don’t pounce. When you pounce, they just keep showing you all this really cool handmade stuff. And then you spend money. Bad. Bad. Or if you do go, look for Chaz- well, I’ll tell you about that later.
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    The Tale of the Recalcitrant Colt: a teenage archtype—

    Me:  Hey, dude.  You shouldn’t be lying down in the grass.  You sick?  You okay?  Get up.  You gotta get up so I know you’re okay.  (push, push – trying to rock a tank)  Look, all we’re going to do is take some pictures.  DUDE!!  GET UP!!

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    Me: (pushing harder)

    The ears: Yeah, I know you’re back there somewhere.  By the way, maybe you’ve noticed: I’m heavier now.

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    Me: (pant, pant).  Okay, how’m I gonna get you up, huh?  Look, you nearly wore me down. I wonder if I can hire a crane?

    The ears: My face doesn’t know you’re there.  But I hear your pain.  LOL.

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    Me: You’re not paying any attention to me, are you?

    Hickory: Did I hear a fly buzz?

    Me: Yeah.  And if you read more poetry, you’d know what that means.

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    Me: (I start a series of lectures on obedience and personal responsibility.)

    Him: (He’s GRAZING LYING DOWN.)

    Me: Okay.  I’m giving you one more chance to show me how obedient you are.

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    Him: Let me know how that turns out.

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    Me:  Yeah.  Well, I’m still the mom.  Mother Nature.  That’s me.  Now, aren’t you glad you acted like a GOOD little pony?

    Him: Sigh.

  • So that’s all I got. If I had anything else, I’ve forgotten it. See what a political melt-down will do for you?
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Quieter now

I started this day’s diatribe early in the afternoon, after I heard that phone call.  And I dumped it on one of my publishers in the middle of a contract conversation.

She said: It breaks your heart, doesn’t it?  I can barely stand to listen to NPR in the car on the way to work anymore. They have running live interviews with people protesting in Iran and also with the survivors of a deadly collision between two DC metro trains earlier this week. It feels almost indecent, listening in on these poor souls’ pain.

I said: Yes.  It does feel that way.  And yet, I have this odd feeling that we need, in some very important way, to take on some of their feeling and carry it for them.  It’s stupid – of course feeling sympathy or even empathy doesn’t actually relieve someone else’s memory or brain chem – but it feels, still, something like a duty.

When she wrote back, she quoted Author Miller, from Death of a Salesman:

Willy Loman never made a lot of money. His name was never in the paper. He’s not the finest character that ever lived. But he’s a human being, and a terrible thing is happening to him. So attention must be paid. He’s not to be allowed to fall into his grave like an old dog. Attention, attention must finally be paid to such a person.

And I say to Mr. Miller, who I’d never bothered before to read:

Yes.

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