~:: End of May ::~

Dropping back again.  So this is how I look when I shoot – face all screwed up, like I can’t see properly or hold still long enough if my face isn’t stiff.

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Chaz in her fancy summer striped dress, and the dramatic black and white hat.

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Did I show you these shots of the secret paths?

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Lorri reads.  Andy’s eyes.

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More me.

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More Chaz –

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Summer means changeable hair. They’ll let her get away with many odd things where she teaches – running around in safety goggles and lab coat. But she can’t have any color hair that doesn’t happen in nature. Go figure.  I mean, isn’t turquoise hair a result of chemical processes?

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My favorite light again.  The water flows down to the lake.  The sun flows up to the mountains.

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Toby is not flowing anywhere.

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Our evening windows.

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~:: Labor Day ::~

Labor Day is not, strictly speaking, a holiday. As in “holy day.” As in Easter and Christmas and other celebrations connected with the eternal. No, Labor Day is actually a people day. As in 4th of July or President’s birthdays, that sort of thing. Thanksgiving and Memorial Day sort of sit somewhere in the middle. The point being, “holiday” doesn’t actually mean “day off.”

Therefore, around here, we celebrated this people day by – are you ready? Laboring! But I’m getting ahead of myself.  This has been the Year of the Book, evidently. Photo books, novels, publishing, figuring out code and covers and processes and interfaces. And while I’ve been busy messing in the world of pretend, my house has been coming down around my widdo eaws. (ears).  One thing I have found: much as I HATE housekeeping—after a steady diet of the abstract, an afternoon of down-and-dirty hands-in-it real work feels – can I say it? Refreshing.

I don’t spring clean. I autumn clean. We’re going to shut all these windows soon, and everything that’s inside, STAYS inside for a long long time.  So for now, the windows are open wide, the years old to-do list is brought out, shaken – and read.  That’s what started this weekend.

But first, the seasonal fun:

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This shot was actually taken earlier in the year.  Can’t remember if I showed you already. I’d driven up north to a farmer’s market in the city, expressly to find this woman – fought my way along through the freeway construction only to find, as I pulled into the parking lot at last, the market was shutting down for the day and people were actually in the act of packing their wares back into cars, ready to head home.  Luckily, LYNDA was still there!!  And I bought this sampler from her.  The reason why this is relevant is –

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she had this same stuff –

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at the Fiber Arts Show Rachel and I – in a fit of cabin-fever – drove to the city to find, the weekend just before Labor Day.  The show was housed in a kinda dark equestrian center, so I’ve got about three shots of it.  But the thing was really fun – so much roving and yarn and temptation – good intentions waiting to be adopted and carted home.

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And we met a strange animal with wildly tufted ears – which you could see if Rachel weren’t waving them at you and getting them all blurred.

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The eye on this giant rabbit was so startling. I think he found us startling, too, actually. She? He?

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The next weekend, Rachel and I were headed out to Swiss Days, over the mountain in an even higher valley.  But she got sick, so I gave up hope of making the journey.  But into the vacuum left by my friend stepped – MY HUSBAND.  Who offered to go.  To a CRAFT FAIR. And go we did.  This is an old little town, populated by pioneer houses typical of the settling of this area.

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The shots are dark because rain was threatening. Which cut down the crowd just a little as did our early-in-the-morning arrival.  See the gingerbread trim? Red brick and white gingerbread.  The house I lived in when I was in grad school was just like this – except it had belonged to a ninety year old woman who lived alone in it for decades before we student girls got to rent it. So the outside had been neglected, and the gingerbread was rotting away. An architectural tragedy.

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This one is just gorgeous.  I shot these three houses in the three blocks we walked from our parking place.

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It’s eight in the morning on a chilly, rainy day – in a tiny, sleepy town. See the crowds of cars and people and orange cones? This show is a BIG deal. It started off being a fund-raiser for an LDS stake, many, many years ago. Now the fair draws craftsmen and women from coast to coast. And the crowds are like Disneyland on a good day.

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G runs into a client who is selling recordings he made at our place.

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I haven’t got a lot of shots, but this booth always fascinates me.  Gourds for Halloween. There are booths for dipped-candle, wood working, glass blowing, jewelry, clothes, toys, metal-work, ceramics, furniture – holiday – educational stuff – all kinds of clever ideas here. We bought two wrought iron, open work pumpkins, a found-metal hanging bat, Christmas gifts, and a ceramic fish. We were very close to carrying home a respectably pricey and deeply gorgeous mirror made by Hudson River Inlay. But then, we thought about how we still had food to pay for this month.

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The ceramic fish booth.  This man makes ornaments and bells and fish. Had I been rich, there would not have been a bell left on this table.

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And the Bartletts.  These are the folks we go up every year to see.  We LOVE these guys. I think Rachel was faking the sickness because she didn’t want to be tempted to sell one of the children so she could buy something – anything – everything from Bartletts. You’ve seen my buckets and my Gone Fishing sign and my hanging stars. What a great family.

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Their booth. I want more stars.  More flowers.  More signs.  MORE WHAT THEY MAKE.  Especially their wind-machines.  One of which I SHALL own before I die.

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One of the first of their things I ever saw was (see on the very back wall?) this huge sculpture they’d made out of (I think) ancient spring harrow tines.  They take pieces of ancient American farm implements and re-purpose them. With GREAT eye – for fun, charm and detail.

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Just a shot of the crowd.  This was probably nine-thirty.  Clouds were burning off.  There’d be no grass to see at all within an hour – lost in legs.

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I don’t know who these women were, but they just looked so typical –

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Lots of funny little cool corners in this town.

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Read the sign on the side of the truck back there.

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Traffic.

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Parking – along the farm roads for miles.

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On the way home past the reservoir.

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The drought has made swamp places out of what should be a lake.

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That was Friday.  On Saturday, after G’s race – the one I shot with Murphy – in the thundering rain, G said, “What do you want me to do for you today?”  And I, who had been looking forward to doing nothing more than doing a blog and reading a book, tucked up on the couch on this lovely thunderous day, found myself saying, “We’re going to clean out the pantry.”  And meaning it.

I’ll tell you what’s unfair: the slave labor grows up and goes away, but there are still just as many rooms to dust, blinds to clean, carpets to vacuum as there were before there were only the two of us.  And the pantry: all the things we MIGHT need some day, the sacks saved, the odd groceries that you only need once every five year—the things you can’t make up your mind about, so you put it on a back shelf till later—and all the cans, bottles and packages you buy, don’t get around to eating, but never throw out—and the specialty pans, pots and tools—all that crammed into the tiny space under the stairs, one of the only two storage places in our entire downstairs.

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All of this came out of it.

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Another angle.

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This doesn’t count.  This is the craft mess and came outa nowhere.

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The HUGE pantry, with all the floor stuff taken out, but everything still on the shelves. Not.  Not everything. The packages of napkins, the THREE (count ’em) big-box cases of plastic summer silverware (I kept forgetting I had enough)—things like that had already been taken off the shelves.  Two hours before this was taken, you couldn’t step more than twelve inches into the place.  All things had to be retrieved one handed (the other hand allowing you to hang yourself out past the doorway) and on one foot (the other used as ballast).

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Cleaned out.  I so wish I’d remembered to do the “before” shot actually before. But you can see actual spaces here, right? And neatly stacked things.

Add to this job the following to-do boxes ticked off in the last week:  all wooden windowsills sanded and re-coated with five coats of Spar Varnish, the master bath wall (the one I had thrilled myself with my industry, stripping off the old wallpaper – a YEAR AGO – thus exposing a wall full of nasty wallpaper glue I had no idea what to do with – that wall) finally washed glue-less, sanded, masked and now painted a very happy fresh green, apples by the bushel gathered and taken to the barn, two sections of pasture stripped of about fifty pounds worth of nasty, spiny, thorny weeds (all done last week)—AND

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every cursed, benighted white metal mini-blind (the kind that bend when you touch them?  The kind you can’t clean any way short of using a carwash?) brought downstairs (this was Monday’s job – another answer to G’s question: “What do you want me to do today?”  Do we think he will ask that again soon?) soaked, sprayed, scoured, hung up to dry and then re-mounted.  Eleven of them.  Some HUGE.  One – the kitchen one – required a jackhammer and hydrochloric acid. But all are now clean.  And they better stay that way.  Somehow.

You know how this feels? I’m setting myself up for the next five years here, and by then, I’m sure I’ll be able to afford new blinds, a gardener, a house keeper, some Round-up, and  – maybe a butler.  I mean, look at the strides the economy has made in the last four years, right?

I will add humbly that last week, I decided to clean a room every day till I’m finished – because I don’t want Donna to get lost in the house when she gets here – her husband wouldn’t like it, because – if she gets lost the way some of my quilt patterns have, he’ll never see her again.  But it took me one full day just to dust down the five windows—(wooden blinds) and furniture and go through all the drawers and hidey places just in our bedroom. The house will yet be clean.

I should live so long.

 

 

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~:: Triathlon ::~

Triathlons don’t usually start with roaring scary thunder storms. But ours did this morning.  G’s, I mean—it wasn’t mine. I don’t do triathlons. And neither did he, actually, this morning.  Here’s how it went: up at five thirty, he was dressing in the come-and-go light of excited electricity—I slept on between bouts of splitting thunder. He left hopefully—in his swimming suit/bike shorts, promising to call me as the event unfolded. If it was going to.

I came downstairs before he left, shivering and freaked after one especially rollicking, house-shaking crash. Came down to make sure that all the electronics were unplugged. To sit in the living room with trembling dogs, too big to curl up in my lap, but doing it anyway. G ate something, gathered up his stuff. And I went back to bed.

I woke, feeling half sick, an hour later to a mad volley of gunshots. At least, I thought they  were gunshots. Or maybe someone was setting off fireworks.  But no, clusters of three, five, six reports, slicing through my dreams, over and over.  It was mad.

G called me – told me not to try to come to the first bit, the swimming, because they weren’t sure yet how it was going to go.

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Then Murphy called me.  The bike part of the race was going to pass just a block east of his house, and he was going to stand at the corner and wait to see G and Cammon go whipping by.  So I dragged myself out of bed, still hearing the gunshots – surely I’d have heard sirens long before, if this was some terrible gun-battle going on? A gun battle at seven in the morning on the Saturday of Labor Day weekend.

I forwent the treadmill and the shower, combed my hair with my hands, grabbed the camera and my stuff and jumped into the car to drive up to the lap of the mountains, to stand with Murphy and watch the madmen bike by.

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Murphy, learning to handle Gin’s first real digital camera, now a hand-me-down of greatest love.

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We waited a long time. The racers were scheduled to swim some 350 meters, then slosh-foot it over the the transition area to find their shoes and their bikes. Then they would ride in the chilly, windy morning about twelve and a half miles over the slopes of the mountain neighborhood’s roads – two loops – there and back again twice.  Finally, we saw them and started shooting.

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Fresh riders, still grinning.  And off they went – uphill past us.

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There were all ages, some very young. Some older than we are. (It’s increasingly difficult to be older than we are.)

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Laura came out to wait with us, book in hand.  Suitable for a spanking-new grad student who is majoring in creative writing and teaching Freshman English.

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Murphy demonstrates the intense focus of a serious photographer.

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And here they come back down the hill.  About twelve minutes out, then twelve minutes back.

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The bearded man.

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There are three ducks who live in this neighborhood.  Every morning, they cross the street, dominating the early traffic. This morning, the traffic left them puzzled and astonished.  Astonished ducks move erratically and, finally, urgently –

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M—waiting for the boys to come back up for the second loop.

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And there they are.

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Hoofin’ it.

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And there they are again, coming back down for the last time.

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At this point, they were going to dump the bikes at the transition area and begin the run along the mountain trails.  Murphy, Laura and I left them to it, retired to the kids’ new house and had gluten free pumpkin/honey pie for breakfast. I am considering joining their household; great pumpkin pie, it turns out, is the very best kind of breakfast.

After some lovely conversation, M and I got back into the car, hoping we had not missed the boys at the finish line. We drove down the hill, following snaking roads I’d somehow missed when I was living up in that neck of the woods, found the parking lot and literally sloshed across a soaking expanse of grass toward the arch at the end of the run.  Our timing had been near perfect all morning, and it did not let us down at this point.

Lightning began to lick at the clouds as we dashed through the spongy grass—and I couldn’t help but wonder if every person who’d ever been hit by lightning had been sure it wouldn’t be them – not at that point in time – not this day.

It didn’t get us.  Or anybody there, even as the thunder crashed overhead and the rain came down.  (We hid our cameras under our jackets.) We got to the finish line about two minutes before the boys did.  By then, it was dark as gloaming, and we were shooting wide open – still didn’t get much but blur.

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The old man going full bore, the son behind him running in his own traditional style –

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with a Go Pro camera in his hand.

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They made it.  It was only then we found out there had been no swim. Here, I’d been so sympathetic – soaking wet riders, chafing through twelve miles of biking.  But people who face liability are not likely to ask you to get into a mountainside swimming pool as lightning licks at the deck chairs.  So it wasn’t, in the end, exactly a triathlon.

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But close enough, G.  Really.  And what is Cammon doing?

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A very professional cool down routine, evidently.

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A very serious routine.

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Sad that the only thing in focus is (are) his feet – his face was priceless, silly dude.

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This was the mountain right above them.

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I drove home after that, but had to prowl the valley, shooting the storm as it moved through. It’s the first real storm we’ve had since May.

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There were scarves and shreds of cloud, caught on the rough bits of the mountains.

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I am blinking. The light this morning was like Wabi’s. Finally, in my hands, that rich, strange light.

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I drove down toward the lake – and every turn was a slightly different sucking in of the breath.

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This tiny slip of white cloud – I saw it coming over the new bridge toward my tiny farm – had to chase it down the airport road.

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I fell in love with this sky.  Couldn’t stop trying to comprehend it.

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This was actually how dark it was – those shots of the boys riding and running – they were all so civilized, coming through the kind and compensatory computer that runs my camera’s automatic systems. Morning gloom, glowering storm, muttering and rumbling in the background of everything that happened today. I loved it so much.

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Then, finally, a shot of my horses from behind my place, a perspective from the airport road. You can’t see much, but what you can see?  Beautiful.  I was so tired after all this, I went straight home, kicked off my soaking sandals and decided to clean out the pantry.  Eight hours later, we finished up – a job well and doggedly done. And watched We Bought A Zoo, a movie I am now recommending to you.

And that’s the whole story.

Oh – in the end, G seems to have placed third in his age division (and Cammon did, too – placed third in G’s age division, considering how faithfully he stuck to his dad).  And the gunshots?  My farmer raises pheasants – and a couple of times a year, he sells dudes the chance to come and shoot their dinner.  So I was right, it was a gun battle, but armed only on one side. This makes me sad.  And now we both know, you and I, what woke me up this morning.

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~:: Turn, turn, turn ::~

I found out today that my early-autumn-angst was slightly overblown. The mountains are changing – but we rode through them today and found that the mountains’ sides were still chock full of green.  And somehow, that made it easier for me to breathe. So, as I promised Marilyn that I wouldn’t just recycle past years’ shots of the same leaves changing – here is the record of our ride:

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We couldn’t take Dustin this time, and I will explain that another time. So we took Sophie instead. Zion and Sophie. She kicked and screamed all the way (I was surprised that there weren’t any huge bulges in the sides of the trailer when we got up the mountain).  Her version of “He’s touching me, Mom!”  I often wonder what he’s said to her to get her wound up like that.

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I was afraid that whole sides of mountains had already gone up in flame.  This was not the case.  But the color was still lovely.

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Guy with Sophie. The man who owned her before we did called her “Princess.”  She took him seriously. Certainly, she has the tail of a princess.

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But I took my little red horse.  My buddy.

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Being silly.

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It was hard to shoot today – all that sky – to find a balance between the dark mountains and the brilliant blue. So some of these are pretty dark, exposures driven by the bright sky.  And some have clouds that are a bit blown out, exposures driven by the darker mountains.  But I loved the way the color came out with the darker shots. I’m not sure what my eyes actually saw – I think the brain is good at factoring in all the light.

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This is the first road we ride down, once we get up onto the meadow.

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I love the layers of mountain – one after another – each different.

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This is how the changing is going. Some full trees – but the maples, few of them have changed – many are like this, just starting.

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Another bit of road.  Color at the end. These surprises at each turn.

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I made the mistake of taking the big camera. It bounced off my stomach, my shoulder, my back, the saddle.  I lost the lens cap at least three times, which meant stopping and climbing down – or riding back along the trail to find it. This is a shot that fired all by itself as I was trying to get the camera out to shoot that color at the end of the road.

May I tell you that a horse makes a terrible tripod? Zion doesn’t approve of photography. I whipped that camera around, took off the cap, tried to put my eye to the viewfinder – only to find that it jammed up against the bill of my helmet.  And the second I’d start the process, Zi’d realize I wasn’t paying attention and drift off the trail.  Or if I was trying to get a specific shot, he’d take a little trot step the second I hit the shutter release.

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Tips of ears.

Finally, I started holding up the camera, trusting the autofocus, hoping I was pointing at the right thing without making sure – shooting on the fly.

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Sometimes I got the sky.

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Like this.

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But this time, I stopped and adjusted for the ground.  Same shot, just different exposure.

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So last year, we saw that someone was starting to build something in the canyon. It turned out to be this.  This is someone’s HOUSE. Can you believe that?  Smack in the middle of the canyon.  I’d say – WHO NEEDS THIS MUCH HOUSE? But I have to remember that I’m a republican.

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These were on the fly. We were passing down through these translucent greens and I just opened up the camera and hoped for the best. It was so beautiful.

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From the back of a moving horse, this is how our little horse rig looks from the lip of the upper meadow.  We are at the end of the ride – we just have to descend along the rocky road – riding all along a cliff –

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The last bit of color before we hit the bottom.

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What we see on our way home. Driving down the tiny, winding road through the little side canyon we love to ride.  G said today, looking out over the vastness of even the tiny valleys, gateways to a deep wilderness – “It’s incredible that all of this is only twenty minutes away from home.  That we can be out here in this beauty – and have it all to ourselves.” Which we did today.

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G rides up here a couple of times a week on his bike. You see this bike rider? She’s taking her life in her hands, riding up this tiny mountain road where people like us, a Suburban hauling a four horse trailer, come roaring down the road, filling it nearly from side to side.  I hate it when he rides up here.

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Our small gauge railroad that goes through the mountains.

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The river.  These things we pass by every time we ride.

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And Bridal Veil.

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A stupid way to end it – but this is a portrait of our state these days – all the roads, always under construction.  We noticed it today because it’s a delicate thing, hauling thousand pound members of the family down a mountain – hard enough when you can use the normal roads.

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Kinda like life, huh?

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~:: More May ::~

This is no big deal. I can’t understand why it has been so difficult to sit down and do this for the last many months. Whatever the reason, I’m tired of not doing it. But I will say, I’m not sure that I have anything to write about – while I have everything to write about.  And I’m discouraged because I’m realizing I’m not the photographer I once thought I was. Ah well.

So these are more images of May. I know that summer on our side of the planet is almost over (may I just say – “Hurrah!!!!”? It’s been one intense set of months), and this lag time is pretty indicative of the state of my mind.

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This moon is supposed to be huge. G told me that night, the moon was supposed to be closer than it had been for  – fill in the blank. So I decided to take a picture of the huge moon.  Huge. See how huge? Evidently my zoom didn’t get the concept. It was pretty, though, and I was shooting it through aspen leaves, which you cannot see.

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This is one of the Idaho Bartlett’s wonderful upcycled metal antiques. I bought it at Swiss Days last year, plunked it on the front porch (right next to the other Bartlett Welcome thing) and was happy. Then one day, I realized G had actually been USING it. The bucket looked WAY happier with stuff in it. Next week is Swiss Days again.  Will I get yet another bucket, I wonder?

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Son Cam, father of Scoots and Andy, stay-at-home-dad on this afternoon, brought the kids to explore in our backyard. Come to think of it, this doesn’t happen very often. And I loved following them around as they focused on the tiny mysteries I usually walk by on my way somewhere else. My yard became my yard again as I watched them.

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G and Cam decided to do a web-ad about our studio piano.

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My son, the pro.

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So in talking to d-i-l Laura, I finally came up with a concept for the Golden Boy cover. (After all those months of total concentration on getting these books published, I’ve petered out. Oh – remind me to tell you what I learned yesterday about the phrase “She stifled herself.”  Anyway, I haven’t talked a lot about this book or the one after it yet.  I think I’m kind of sleep-walking these days, trying to let my awareness catch up – )

So the concept started with the poster Henny Penny, Rachel’s daughter, had drawn for a presentation to her 5th grade class on this book.  Before it was published.  Up till then, I’d been trying to figure out what to do with the cover. But her work was SO right – except for the red background.  Then I thought, what if I took the rest of the art and stuck it on a piece of notebook paper, as if Brandon had drawn it himself—probably while he was supposed to be learning about fractions or something.  But knowing Brandon, it couldn’t be a regular piece of notebook paper –  it had to be a murdered piece of paper.  And the first mess on it had to be a glop of chocolate milk.

So I dug out some notebook paper and, lucky for me, found a cup that G had just used for chocolate milk. Then I glopped. And made a half-hearted swipe at cleaning it up. Horrible – yay! Then I let the dogs walk on it – spring, rain (we had rain back then), small dog paws: perfect. Then applied some tape.  And hug it up on the back deck to dry: excellence.  Put Henny’s art over the top and a little bit of commentary – I liked it.

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The yard in spring.  The grass is just starting to come in strong – mowed for the first time here, I think.

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The secret path back to the studio.

And that’s it. Just some random shots.  No philosophy.  No politics (grrr-politics).  No ground-shaking experiences.  Just hundreds of hours sitting at that desk, working through the manuscripts and the layout and the covers and the code, code, code –

I wonder if I’ll ever do any more?  But next time, I’m gonna do it when it’s cold and gray and yucky outside. Not when the grass is this green.  If it ever is again.  It will be, right?

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~::May 2012 – Revisiting Summer::~

Rewind: so many stories I wanted to record. I only remember them now because I took the pictures – which is the point, then, for taking them in the first place.  So I take us back to the very beginning of May (Ah – May, with your velvet greens and lush promise; how jaded I feel now, standing in the dry glare of August – relentless heat and skies that promise storms that never break). In May, irrigation is just about to start – horses being put to grass for the first time in the season. So we are down at the pasture, fixing gates of all kinds.

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Truck full of tools.

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Husbandman (in the true sense), using a wretched piece of plywood and a tire, makes a plug for the ditch no longer in use.

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Next step, climb down in the hole. This is our gate. G is sealing it for the second time, trying to keep the water from sneaking out of the box into the ditch we are NOT using.

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Next step: stick your head into the actual culvert. Any raccoons in there? Scary spiders?

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Our pasture from the perspective of the irrigationists. (I made up that word. It means us.)

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I was off working in the grass, putting up the electric fence, getting things ready for the grazing.  When I came back down into the pasture, there was Reed Stone, our neighbor and friend – one of the greatest men we know.  Now ninety – a birder, metal sculptor, wood carver, teacher and leader of young men, once a farmer, now the father of our whole neighborhood, and grandfather to many children to whom is not related by anything but love and respect. He has stopped to chat, and perhaps to enjoy watching somebody else doing the work for a change.

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Here is the pink tree. I’m too late to catch it this year; the blossoms are almost gone – torn by the spring winds. Sorry about the ugly (but miraculous) power lines.  I usually take the time to remove them, but I’ve got church in a little.

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Here is the pink snow. It fills the mouth of my driveway with bright pink – and the gutters and the streets. But the petals are a little worn now.

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It was a stormy day for us – no rain, but lowering clouds – a sort of luminous gray that made shooting hard. I ended up over-estimating my light.  So all these shots will be brassy; I had to pull the horses out of the shadows, so they are all noise and harsh color.

This is what I see every day when I come to the little farm: they know the sound of the car, of my feet on the gravel.  Out come the waiting horses, peering down the long drive, encouraging me along with nickers, when they are polite, and clangs – hooves striking the gate – when they are saying, “It’s about time.”

I love the alert heads, the shining blazes down their faces, the eyes, at once richly brown and shining.  Watching for me. Eager, impatient for me to come.

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I am working in the back. They are cross with me, anxious to get out of the arena, onto the fresh grass. Here, they argue over who is standing in whose space.

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The cow next door watches them with interest.  Lonely cow.

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Zion is watching me.  If I look at all inclined to start walking toward the arena gate, he wants to know it first.

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Two white noses.

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When I open the gate, this happens (can you see anything?): horses pounding wildly down the driveway, looking for an open gate.

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But wait – there is a problem halfway down there. See the two arrows? Dustin has stopped and turned back, scaring the daylights out of Sophie, who throws herself out of his way, tail flying.  Zion is wisely keeping his distance.

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For some reason, Dustin didn’t make it all the way down to the end, where the gate stands open.  You can see Hickory, already on the grass down there.  But something must have startled Dustin, and everything about Dustin startles Sophie.

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Zion is philosophical. If they are going to stop up the driveway, he’ll just do a little weeding right there at the barn.

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Finally, they all get down onto the grass.  The wind is blowing brightly and the light is still that glowing gray. I manage to get a totally horrible exposure of a scene I was hungry to catch. The grass is so lush, the horses so satisfied.

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This house belonged to my good friend, Stan. But he had to sell it. The very sad thing is that Murphy and Laura have lived in that over-the-garage apartment (see the arrow over the left side of the house?) since the day they married.  In the morning, if I came early enough, Murphy’d know I was there working with the horses, and come out his door (the arrow) to stand on his tiny, high porch whistling for me.  When I climbed my panels to wave back, I’d hear, “I love you, Mom!” coming from an acre away.

Something I kinda treasured. Treasured, treasured, treasured. But now they have moved up onto the lap of the mountains, closer to school, paying less rent.  Good for them, but now there is no chance I will see my young son waving from his porch.

There is this now: wee E and dainty An and teeny, wild Ktln, the children who now live in that house, call to me and wave from their back stoop as I walk down the driveway. And that is pretty good, too.

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Dustin, all unaware that he is setting Dandelion puffs a-blowing, grazes deeply, first grass of the season.

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Seeds fly like strange, rotating creatures.

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And smaller beasts catch a ride as he moves.

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Sophie, with her silken tail dancing in the wind.

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John Dear.

If it were only a square yard of country, it would yet be a pearl of great price.

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~:: More Fourth ::~

The 4th of July.  Independence Day. Barbecues, parades (with horses), fireworks, craft fairs, patriotic villages, friends, games, marching bands, bagpipes, craziness.  This year started with G getting up early to run a 10K race.  And Chaz and Chelsea and I drove up to the parade so we could walk the very long length of it.  People start staking out sidewalk seats with blankets and tarps at three in the afternoon the day before. But we like walking because we run into all kinds of people we know.  And not only do we get to see the whole mile long thing in about half the time everybody else does, we can follow the bands while they play.

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In the afternoon, every year, we have the backyard party that I always think I’m NOT going to do. But thanks to Chaz, who does the decorating and the food planning, and G, who does the grill, we always end up having it.  In earlier years, we had tons of neighbors with all their kids – with relay races that pitted children against parents, neighbor against neighbor—feats of skill and hunts and crazy stuff.  But the families grew up, and now each family has so many children and grandchildren, you kind of can’t get together in one place anymore.  And I’m old and tired, too.  So we’ve gone very small.

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We only have a few friends now.  Here, Abby from across the street, makes friends with the Little Back Dog.

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The girls put up shiny bunting and set the tables.

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More bunting across the deck – no children allowed.  The deck is old and tired, too – but the river never seems to slow down.

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Cook holds audience—explaining, no doubt, the proper way to burn a hotdog.

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Chaz in her 4th finery. Check out the lace-up-really-high-tops. And the lurking Chelsea behind her.

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Umm.  They’re both wearing Captain America shirts, but the captain in the back seems to have nefarious intent.

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YES!  An attack!! Gotcha!

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The team cuts up melons

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while the troops run wild –

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and make friends.

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Elves find the hidden paths –

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and kids turn the tables on dads.

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Beautiful Rachel

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EATING

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Moms in the grass.

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Everyone hanging around under Geneva’s mist-er.  Gotta get one for the horse barn.

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Native savages sneak around with pet wolves.

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And turn into tiny Bigfoots.

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Beautiful Rachel #2

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Beautiful Michelle #1

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Beautifullest Levi #10000

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And the guys are talking about what?

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Let the face painting begin.  This year, Laura does the WHOLE THING herself.

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Faces I love.

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This man offered to haul and stack all my hay this year while we were gone to Santa Fe. So he and Cam and Murphy and Calvin and Thomas and Luke did it.  Ron’s one of my heros.  And he knows how to do the Haka. And he’s really scary, doing it.

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His daughters – some of them.

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Beautiful Sam#1

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Not everybody, but close. Geneva’s gang still to come. And the yard counts as a character.

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Just a closeup.

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This is a game: find the hidden tiny flags. Sam’s strokin’ –

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But here is a scary moment – when innocent flag hunters enter the woods and are about to be grabbed by a crazy spotted person.

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THIS crazy spotted person.

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Even painted people eat.

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And Scooter, whose design request was “The Golden Plates.”

Then everybody went home, off to do fireworks – very carefully, this year, as our state is burning up.  There were nine wild fires burning in the mountains and high valleys that weekend.  Thousand of acres.  Secretly (yeah, like I’d keep it a secret), I’m not hot about fireworks.  But we had great fun, ate well, and couldn’t go to sleep till one in the morning, what with the bombs bursting in air.

Anyway, I’m always relieved when it’s over – the planning and partying and blowing things up. It always feels like summer finally starts the day after all this fun.

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~:: Back to the 4th ::~

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I’m going to be moving backward in time here. Unevenly, too. Again, this blog is – at its heart – the journal I’m keeping of our lives. So I don’t want to miss things. I just wish I weren’t compelled to post every flipping image I take. Which I don’t. But maybe forty out of two hundred fifty.

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I love little paths

So here were are on the 3rd of July. Our little cities freak out for Independence day – fairs and parades and historical villages. We missed the colonial village to the north last year, so I was glad when Chaz wanted to go up there this year.

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A wood carver at work.  I bought the most cunning crochet hook from him.  And Chaz bought a spoon for her kitchen. There were also spinners and weavers and  bakers of hardtack—iron mongers (I bought a little leaf-hook to hang on the wall, so I could hang my hand-made broom), potters and a magnificent broom maker/cooper, all working out in the open for the edification of all.

Chaz was intending to offer her services to the village, so she dressed the part.

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This is not Chaz. This is her re-enactment buddy who sewed every one of these absolutely historically correct uniforms himself.

Not the part of ABIGAIL Adams, though; you couldn’t pay her to wear stays and corsets and layers of thick fabric skirts.

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Chaz, posing with another buddy, a woman far more cooperative than Chaz is herself.

But she’ll wear breaches and a frock coat and march with the guys.

This is her soul’s story: she marches defiantly off, covertly following her beloved, dressed in boys’ clothes and carrying her father’s ancient blunderbuss (which her brother taught her to shoot, just for the joy of watching it knock her over every time).

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In her disguise, she smugly exchanges aphorisms with interesting characters, like Rowdy old Ben Franklin.

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And keeps an eye on the troups.

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In the battle, it’s her shot that saves her loves’s life, and she stands over him, swinging the empty gun until the battle is over and she can catch a horse to take him safely home.

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And here’s the deal: she marries him, but only under the condition that she can wear trousers and hunt woodcocks and climb trees with her sons and daughters no matter what anybody else thinks. Someday, she’d sneak in to vote, too, and they’d end up writing kids’ books about her two hundred years later. Yep. She’d like that.

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And that is what happened after the balloons and before the actual 4th.

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~:: shameless self promotion ::~

The promised Great Paperback Giveaway –

Oh, but some of you guys probably didn’t see this on Facebook.  Because I can’t give comps to every person I love, I am going to have a giveaway – one Breaking Rank to one person, one The Gardener to another.

This is a celebration of the fact that they are not just e-books anymore, but are actually available as REAL BOOKs. With pages. The kind you can drop in the bathtub and ruin.  The kind that gathers dust, travels crammed in your bag, smiles at you from the bookshelf.  ¥ou can get them on Create Space, Amazon, and The Gardener, at least, on Barnes and Noble.  I have links on my Kristen D. Randle author page on Facebook, but I’ll add them here, too, later.

But for now, I’m running off on business.  The official giveaway is here on my writing workshop site.  When I get back I’ll tell you more.  And Donna – I’m already counting your    stuff.

REAL BOOKS.

(later)

Links. All right then – The Gardener: https://www.createspace.com/3828583 orhttp://www.amazon.com/The-Gardener-Kristen-D-Randle/dp/147747398X/ref=tmm_pap_title_0?ie=UTF8&qid=1324053120&sr=8-1

Breaking Rank: https://www.createspace.com/3881714 or http://www.amazon.com/Breaking-Rank-Kristen-D-Randle/dp/1477489665/ref=sr_1_1_title_0_main?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1343186857&sr=1-1&keywords=Breaking+Rank+randle

Wait – Barnes and Noble – The Gardener: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/the-gardener-kristen-randle/1111484338?ean=9781477473986

But they don’t have Breaking Rank yet. Here are the secrets: unless you have prime, because the prices at Createspace are the same as the ones at Amazon, it’s better for me if you go Create Space. (Prime=free shipping). But Barnes and Noble beats the heck out of both of those price-wise just now.

But there’s that giveaway, too, remember.  It’s just—if you don’t win a book, DON’T FORGET TO BUY ONE. Right?  Right?  WOO-HOO!!

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~:: Direction ::~

I’m lost. Not as in: my soul has failed.  As in: standing at a complicated crossroads and turning helplessly round and around and around.

I’m at that place where a long laundry-list of delightful, challenging, loving to-do s (how the heck do you punctuate that???) turns into an anxious, rushing confusion. That should never happen. But it does. I think it’s because of time—that most limited of resources. Which thing now? Or now? Or after that?

Part of this is coming home after a week’s adventure in the mystical southwest. An interlude in the project madness.  I’ve lost my place in everything. But a good part of it has nothing to do with that at all.

There are three lives I would like to have lived.

One is the one I am living, or trying to.

One would have me living at the Parelli Ranch for a few years, learning all I can about interactions with horses, becoming kind and confident in my dealing with them.  Days and days of nothing but becoming wise and skilled and walking in the beauty of the creatures.

The last would have me living at Zuni, teaching and tutoring and learning to understand. Doing good in the world beyond this corner of my couch.

In none of these lives would I change the essentials. I would have the same physical and personal flaws – I wouldn’t be any taller or have a tendency to be willowy (because I wouldn’t be myself anymore, and somehow, that’s more important than beauty. Even more important than dignity and self-control and consistent patience and kindness—so I couldn’t change that either).  And there would be the same exact people, because no life would be worth living without the people I love—the family, the friends—regardless of conflicts and challenges and the vagaries that occur in the flow of life.

I’d just live those three lives in parallel—one life not taking anything from the other. Which you could do—if there was no inexorable direction to time. If time didn’t rush so to the precipice and then fall off the edges of the earth.  Where does it go, I wonder? Into some eternal sea, some reservoir where it can be kept for some other stage of cycling? Or maybe it just evaporates, like the mist off a mighty waterfall .

This is how I have to imagine the eternities: time no longer a dimension. Which might even eradicate space as well. That we may be and do all of the things we are made to do. All of the beautiful things. Without robbing one for the other. Growing into all of the things we could be. Without hovering nervously over our small caches of resource, worrying about allocation, robbing love for love.

What figures large lately in my prayers: knowing what to do. Which thing is important? Where do you start? Which thing is next? Which thing will have the most lasting significance and is that the most important consideration? Which can be dropped without harm or irresponsibility?

I find that I don’t know the answers. I do not know. Does this come of being so rich in life that the panoply of choices become a trial? Or am I just stupid?

Whatever it is, today, still with the flag-ends of all those major projects waving loosely, wildly in the wind (and why start anything if you will just drop the ball ten yards from the goal?), with the duties and obligations of the tax-payer, home-owner, citizen of home, town, community, church, country, planet festering still on the backburner, with friendships and fun that beckon, books to sell, horses to sew, camels to finish, photos to go through and process and share, relationships to tend, horses to ride and train, Photoshop tutorials to watch, potential always to fulfill – I am sitting here trying to explain this feeling of panic to myself.

So you know what I’m going to do now? I do know what to do first just now: breakfast, even though it’s nearly lunch time, to the tune of a library book.  The calming waters of a somebody else’s story. Irresponsible. But that’s what I’m going to do.

As for the anxiety attack that seems pressing? I’ll think about that tomorrow.

I think I secretly wish I was nothing but a happy little dog.

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