Just a thought –

While I was shoveling at the barn this morning—one of those contemplative activities, like taking a shower – the ideal time for thinking outside the box—I started thinking about healing.  It’s a gift I wish I had, healing in my hands.  Not like being a doctor; more like being able to interface nervous systems through touch, and having an innate sense of the rightness of the system.  They way you plug cars into computers now to diagnose them.  And then I’d be able to send energy into the immune system and direct it to repair the damage or the anomaly—or to kill off the pathogens.  I’m not sure that the cure wouldn’t hurt.  But it would be absolute.  But I could not cure death.

I was going to write a book about people who could do this once.  Now I wonder if I’ll ever settle down long enough to write another book.  But that’s beside the point.  I was thinking about that healing gift, about being able to do that, and wondering how my life would change completely if I could.  And then I wondered, if I could only do this for a person three times in her lifetime – what then?

Then I wondered, if someone could do something like this for you, but only three times in your whole life, how quick would you be to line up for the treatment?  The older you are, the easier the answer to the question, I guess.  But I wonder, what thing in your life would have been so important, you’d want to spend one of your healings to change it?

I don’t think I would have used any of them yet, afraid of wasting the gift on something that, in the great scheme of things, would have turned out to be not that significant.  I think back, and maybe because I know that I’ve dealt with each and every thing that has come at me – endured, then adapted or recovered—it seems to me that nothing I’ve suffered has really been that bad.

I’m thinking about Rachel, now, and I’m not sure she’d use up one even for the West Nile.  Because she’s been able to deal with it.  And what if something might come along later that isn’t deal-able?

Would most of us, I wonder, end up using none of the three?  If I changed the conditions and said only three for a family, I think almost everybody I know would opt out in favor of their kids.

I don’t know.  Any thoughts?